Tulala Sa Hangin, Kasi Lasheng

Tulala, nakatingin lang sa malayo. Nababaliw na ata ako, pero hindi pa naman, alam kong hindi pa. Hindi ko pa naman kausap ang sarili ko diba?

“Sandali. Parang kausap ko palang ung sarili ko kanina ah”

“Ulol. Ako lang yon!”

“Umm. Sino ka naman??”

“Ikaw.”

“Nice. Kausap ko na sarili ko. Parang Deadpool.”

Hmmmm... Sweet

Nakakabaliw.Ewan. Nababaliw na talaga ako. May mga pag kakataong tumatawa nalang ako nang walang dahilan. Parang. Tulad ngayon, natatawa ako. Natatawa ako sa sarili kong mga biro. Kahit wala talagang kwenta yung joke na pumasok sa kukote ko. Tatawanan ko pa rin. Konti nalang, baliw na ako. O, baliw na ako? Ewan. Walang paki-alaman nalang siguro. Wala na akong paki-alam. Kulang lang siguro ako sa tulog. Pero. Haizz.

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Spider-Geek

I am swinging in downtown New York.

Yeah, that line get’s old after 10 bajillion times of getting printed and reprinted in books and comic books — About me! Heck! Marvel should be paying me for using my freaking name! — SO like what ever, I get talkative sometime. And I usually talk to myself, yeah, like this. You might say I have a few gears missing but Deadpool do this kinds of shit and his comics rating is off the hook,so why don’t I do this for a change? Yeah. I should PROBABLY do this. I should do this. I am already doing this, why am I arguing with myself. But here I go,swinging in downtown new york like I usually do after selling photos of me at the New York Times. And you should know, my boss is not a grumpy asshole from the 10th dimension as the comics portrayed, she’s smoking hot.

And here I am, swinging in weblines that came with the spider bite, the wind rushing through my mask as I think what I should be having for dinner. Being a superhero is great and all but it can’t pay my bills, which I have in abundance. ——-SPIDERSENSE—— There goes my sixth-sense people and when this happens my ass usually gets handed down on me. Usually.

*RING* I know this will be bad. This will be freaking bad.



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sabi nila masarap ang bawal… weee…

Kuya Jay: bawal? bagong ulam ba yan?

Kuya Felix: hindi… hahaha
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Naman!! Sobrang sarap ng bawal.. ImaGINin mo, ganito yan.. ImaGINin mong lahat ng pagkain kalasa ng bawal.. kahit sino makakarelate, este, matritripan ang putaheng “bawal”..

bawal uminom nang GIN!! ba, ang sarap pala ng gin!! lasang pagmaMaJhal.. sa huli ang pag sisi..

Bawal mag syota! nyak, ‘sarap pala ng may kakulitan hanggang umaga!! Masagwa nga lang kung mag kalabuan.. luluha ka ng X100, mas marami sa ngiting hinatid nya..

‘bawal ang yosi!! biro mong ang sarap palang sirain ang baga mo!!

bawal matulog hanggang alas-tres! woooww.. pre, groggy pa ako sa kakatulog..

Masarap talaga ang bawal!! lalo na pag bawal manood ng ano.. basta.. alam nyo na yun.

s**.. (too innocent for that).. pero kahit bawal,, isipin mong nakakapapayat pala!! ayaw yata akong papayatin eh..

si Estelita!! bawal pa daw sya! kaya pala ang sarap umasa sa kanya! now I know!

Ung DoTA! binawal sa akin.. pero di ko alam kung bakit ang sarap laruin.. kahit imba ang skills ko

bawal mag mahal ng di kaedad! biro mo da best pala un.. marami ka pang matututunan sa buhay (wag nga lang sobra, masama ang sobra)…

Sit Sa Ron Baboy, bawal din! ‘tang juice! ang sarap pala! Masarap talaga ang bawal.. Lalo na kung ginagawa ng patago!

Wala akong nais palabasin.. kasi hindi ako sinehan.. isa lang akong binatang walang love life na wala din magawa sa buhay.. wala lang, wala lang magawa sa buhay.. Pero ganun talaga mga taong walang magawa sa buhay.. minsan.. we make sense.. parang si van gogh.. walang magawa sa buhay, ayun pinutol yung tenga nya, ‘tas nag patiwakal.. pero nag pinta sya ng painting na world wide hit (starry night).. Para rin syang si, ano.. si.. sunny leone.. walang magawa sa buhay.. kaya ayun.. gumawa ng mga educational videos ;)..

Pero ‘di point is.. Masarap ang bawal.. Lalo na kung yung bawal eh, Japanese AV.. at ang bida si Maria Ozawa o si Sora Aoi.. YUM!!

Kaya, mga bata! wag hintaying maging legal ang bawal bago nyo maexperience.. kasi ang bawal masarap lang yan pag bawal pa..

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Good Bye… A short Reflection

I never thought of how I would die. It never crossed my mind that someday or maybe sooner, death will reap my immortal soul from its mortal vessel. I never thought of how I would face God, knowing that I turned my back against Him. I never thought of saying good bye to everyone who became part of my short life here on Gaea. I don’t know what to say to the ONE who will judge me after I passed to the realm of the angels and ghosts. I am never ready. That puts shiver down to spine. Will it be heaven or the pains of hell? Will be Paradise or Paradox?… Will I ever see her again??

*bang*

I wish this will be the last thing I will see before light fades in me..


To Everyone You’ve Been the Greatest Audience!

The sudden jolt of lifelessness hits me,
As the bullet from the caliber .45 impacts my cranium
My brain splattered as the bullet runs through my skull
Dead before I lay down on the ground

I do know that this will all end here…
But I never expected that she will shed a tear
As she sobs down all the pain from seeing me fall down
I stood up, immortal but just a shadow in a white gown

I knew I was dead, He never gave me a chance
Even to review my life in a fleeting dance
I wish I saw my mother, or just hugged her,
Or gave a high five to my dearest father

But I knew this was the end,
And I have you all to give my compliment
The show’s ending in a short moment
I hope you enjoyed my performance, God lend.

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It’s not me. It’s you.

Sa Bill of Rights “Section 1. No human person shall be deprived of life, liberty or property without due process of law, nor shall any person be denied the equal protection of the laws.” Dapat pala, matagal na syang nakakulong. Bakit?? Kasi, she deprived me of living my life with liberty and to properly own my heart. Kasi the moment I laid my eyes on her, she stole everything. Para syang mga Spanish Conquistadores, bigla lang nasilayan ang inang Felipinas eh, sa kanila na daw ang buong Archipelagic Isles ng majhal kong bayan. Ang kaibahan lang nilang dalawa, eh, she owned me without knowing. Kasi, she was destiny’s answer to my scornful remarks about not believing in serendipity. Kasi, kung hindi serendipity ang pag kakakilala ko sa kanya, ewan ko nalang.. Bahala na si Batman.

Ika nga ng bandang Aerosmith, “I was crying when I met you, now I am dying to forget you,” (limot ko ung exact lyrics, pero i think this phrase captured the essence of it). Hindi nga ako nag dadalamhati nung makilala kita (kausap ko na in first person) pero, dahil sayo, hindi ako makatulog ng maiigi. “I am dying to forget you” na nga eh. Seryoso yan, pero mahirap. Lalo na kung araw-araw kitang nakikita (kasalanan ko naman talaga, Ini-istalk kita sometimes.) Ikaw yung tipo ng babae na gusto kong paligayahin habang ako’y may hininga pa. Arrrggghh.. Mahirap kaya mag drama! Lalo na kung minsan may ume-epal na epal sa buhay mo. Hindi mo na nga pinapansin at lahat, pilit talagang sumisiksik sayo. May gusto atang patunayan. Mabalik ako, nag detour muna. Kaya ayon, tumigil na akong kalimutan ka, instead, I embraced your identity in my life. “Sabi nga ni Remodo” (imaginin mong nasa klase ka ni Sir Remodo at sinasabi nya yang linyang yan) YAON. Bagkus na talikuran ka, hinarap ko ang sikat ng araw na may pag-asa. Kasi alam kong nandyan ka kahit na wala ka. Kasi nga,kahit na anong sabihin mo para tantanan na kita, it’s imperative that I love you. Kasi sabi ng guhit ng palad ko, Majhalin mo lang sya, hayaan mo nang problemahin ni Batman ang mga problema mo.

Kaya, bahala na si Batman. I Love You.

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You (in)Complete me!

Andaming regerets.. hindi mo mararamdaman hanggang sa marealize mong nag-iisa ka lang pala.. at kahit na anong pag reach out ang gawin mo eh, wala talaga.. ika nga.. I want someone to love me for who i am.. pero sana wag mo na akong pahirapan pa.. kasi sana ikaw na.. wala nang bitiwan pa.

Isipin mo, nasa ganyan akong mindset habang lango sa gin (actually two shots lang naman sya, pero punyeta lakas ng amats ng Ginebra.. Pamatay.. Tapus ang shot glass pa ng mga kainuman ko eh, kasinglaki ng large float ng mcdo..) Tapus, pasuray-suray ako sa woodlands (ka-niyogan lang naman to mga tsong, somewhere in iriga).. Walang hiya yan.. Ang emo ko minsan.. kahit ako, naiinis ako sa sarili ko pag tinamaan na ako ng kanegahan.. Well, if i don’t do this.. I might go permanently crazy.. Kinaumagahan yung malupet.. ginising ako ng mga farmers ko para sabihang tumawag na nanay ko at tinatanong kung ano na nangyari sa akin.. Shet, paalam ko kasi sa iriga muna ako matutulog kasi may date ako nung gabing yun sa Legazpi.. Eto yung malala..

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Expecting anything?? Well, I could come up with something uberly fantastic that would make someone laught out loud.. or tickle someones funny bones.. But i wouldn’t do that, because i already did.. You just read it.. The point is, after pasting an incredible title, you would be excited to know what misfortunes and mishaps befallen the greatest pakialamero in the world.. Actually, i was drunk.. yes, drunk because of two shots of deadly gin. Pero, there was only one thing that’s running in my FuCKINg brains.. The girl that gave me all the reason to question my identity.. She 2012 my whole fragmented life and built a giant pangea out of it.. But there’s something missing in my wholeness.. I was missing her.. Para akong si Leoric na walang last skill, o kaya si traxxex na hindi naka-life steal.. I was incomplete.. I don’t love her, love is just a feeling that can be forgotten and replace.. I don’t love her.. I don’t love her.. I am over that.. I can’t put my fingers into it.. I think my heart won’t beat if i forget her

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Where Do I Star(T)

I don’t get her?

Simply because she’s not replying to the kakulitan I am sending her (tnx to facebook chat).. Kahapon, okay pa naman kami.. I don’t know what jolt her this time to act coldly.. It’s slowly killing me, with, all the painkillers stabbed through my heart.. Siguro sya na yung babaeng pang trump sa akin ni Lord.. yung babaeng mag papabago sa mislead ways ko.. Pero, kung sya nga yon, sana naman hindi sya ipagkait sa akin ng oras at panahon.. Baka ma Hawkman at Hawkgirl kami nyan (reasearch nyo sa wikipedea ang back story ni hawkman at hawkgirl).. Me endlesly traversing different stratus of time just to be with her, tapus sya naman pilit na lumalayo sa akin.. Heavy?? Try nyo kayang maging comics geek.. Pero, i don’t know.. Sana wag naman.. I am desperately in love with her.. there are times na, nagigising nalang ako na akala ko naririnig ko boses nya telling me to face a new tommorow with her, pero pag mulat ko si Jeecko lang pala,, walang kasawasawang humuhuni na parang alarmclock.. What should i do?? Ano sa tingin mo ma’am digz?? am i suffering from disillusionment and hysteria?? Kasi kung nababaliw man ako di masaya, atleast nagiging totoo mga panaginip ko even if it’s in the confinement of my broken mind..

I don’t get her.. Pero i am sincerly inlove with her.. (Pasensya na sa mga typos, its been a long time since i have written anything),, you know.. sincere… totoo.. hindi isang pagkukunwaring napakadaling sabihin pero napakahirap panindigan.. I tried loving other girls on her stead,, pero nakokonsenya lang ako… Kasi everytime i am with my current fling (sa ngayon?? wala pa) siya ang laman ng puso ko kahit ang laman ng isip ko. .ay. ang katawan ng fling ko.. Sheeeettt!! what’s this all about?? Self confession?? Pero, i don’t know.. i don’t believe on the human clergy anymore, so i refuse a million times to confess to almighty God.. Pero, this last few nights have been a heavy overdose of paranoia and fear.. I wake up 3 in the morning after 2 hours of sleep, full of sweat, my heart thumping as if na overdose sa cough syrup with a headache na parang sobrang sarap mag hugot mawala lang.. Siya ang laman ng mga headache’s ko.. Hindi lang heartaches ang binigay nya sa akin.. Pati pala headaches eh, nang lilibre sya..

I’ve been thingking of commiting suicide to stop the torment (hindi ung mag lalaslas, yung tipong lalaklak ako ng FARMER”S CHOICE 5 a.m. in the morning tapus matutulog ako after 30 hours of drinking the same stuff).. Pamatay siguro ang hangover ko nyan.. mga 5 days siguro akong patay (if you know what i mean).. tapus instant ressurection pag naisipan nyang mag text.. Kung mag text..

I LOVE her. I know. I. Do. Kahit tamaan man ako ng kidlat (ni ZEUS, dota mode). Kahit i doom pa ako ni doombringer. Kahit mag epic fail ang last skill ni abbadon habang nag papasikat ako sa team itsme. Kahit ma 2012 man ngayon mismo ang mundo. Majhal ko sya. I know. Kasi sabi ng puso ko. Siya si Cleopatra sa Marc Anthony ko. Siya si Lady Guinevere at ako ang kanyang Sir Lancelot. Siya ang Juliet sa Romeong palpak ko. Kasi ako si Araw at siya si Buwan.

P.S.
Nakakasama din palang ma overdose sa mga lumang sine ni tita Shawie at ni tito aga.. NakakapaEMO.

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